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Hawaii Ten

One day I'll find her.

She will be radiant and beautiful. Easy and free. Life's a breeze to her somehow, someway. Deep and contemplative. A vision of beauty in and out. Unsurpassed in her compassion. She will be my lady. I will be her man. We'll have our love of life together and smile constantly in that ever so slight way. And I won't be able to stop myself. Not that I would want to.

HAYOOOOOO YOU GOT LIGHT IN YOUR EYES

Man. I tell you. I see her smile in my dreams. It comes so easily, so readily.

NEVER FOR MONEY ALWAYS FOR LOVE

At the drop of a hat. At a wink. At a sunset or a sunrise or a breakfast. I love her smile. She makes me so happy, and I don't even know her yet. I love her forever and will always. Perhaps she's just the place I want to be. One day I'll already be there. Loving that moment. Living it it with someone else. Lost in time, withinwithout time. Extended that joy forever. A gentle touch here and there. A Sweetcaress. Lovingly embrace.

HAYOOOOOO SING INTO MY MOUTH

I suppose I'll have to break it to her that This is the Place (Naive Melody) might well be one of the greatest love songs ever written. The way he pours himself into the music. The heartfelt whoknowswhat. Singingspiredmusic.

WE'LL SHARE THE SAME SPACE FOR A MINUTE OR TWO

My girl is there. The girl who will love me for me. Not overbearing, but not weak-willed. Not dominating, but not subjugating. She's the one I run to, if you must know. I just haven't seen her in such a damn long time that I can't figure out to where I'm supposed to run. I never had the map, I just played it by ear. And eye. But now? I can't find the trail any longer. It'll just be a little while, I'm sure it'll come back to me. You can't forget home.

HOME IS WHERE I WANT TO BE

That shared feeling of safety. Shared. Together. Joyfully. Truly loving every moment we have together instead of just sharing those moments.

HAYOOOOOO YOU GOT LIGHT IN YOUR EYES.

I don't know quite what she looks like, but I know she smiles at me as I fall asleep. I know she's someone who makes sure that I'm okay as she cares for me the way that I care for her... She's gentle but not overprotective or worried. She's the person I always come to for advice, and she never fears giving it to me whether I heed it or not. She trusts my judgement like I trust her advice. Always. No matter whether I take it or not, no matter whether she agrees or not. We make our own choices, but we always take each other's counsel.

I'M JUST AN ANIMAL LOOKING FOR A HOME.

She will be gentle and loving. She will be competitive and full of smiles.

SHE'LL LOVE ME 'TIL MY HEART STOPS

She will love intellectual pursuit as well as physical. It'll be a fight sometimes, but a loving fight. A Loving kind of argument. A debate.

EYES THAT LIGHT UP

I'm not looking for a person to spend weeks with. Nor months. Nor years. I'm looking forever. I don't want the short term. I want the long-term love. I will love whomever I love, but what I truly seek is the long-term. Searching for the everlasting afterglow. The forever-knowing you're home.

THIS MUST BE THE PLACE.

I know she is out there for me, I know I will find her one day. Until that day, I'll continue to love my life and keep on keepin' on, in the parlance of [someone else's] times. Because one day when I lock my eyes to hers, something will pass between us and we two will know what comes next. In the interim,

I GUESS I MUST BE HAVING FUN

I don't know what comes next, but I know what comes eventually, We'll find we.

HAYOOOOOOO I GOT PLENTY OF TIME.

Every day without her is just a buildup to the time when I finally find her again. Not the shadows of her, or the parts of her that I've seen in other women that I've shared time and space. But the full version. The person I'm looking for and I need to find. It could take a long long time, but I know it'll be worth it.

AND YOU'RE STANDING HERE BESIDE ME

She'll be attractive as all get-out. She'll be my lady. My woman. I'll be her man. I'll be just me, but that'll be all I need to be. She'll be just her and radiate her light near the light I hope I can return to her in kind.

NEVER FOR MONEY, ALWAYS FOR LOVE

That's the mantra. Never for Money, Always for Love. Not just in my life with her, but in my life and her life on our own. That'll make it all work so very well. We'll be living our lives for love and loving the lives that we live in love.

I CAN'T TELL ONE FROM ANOTHER
EITHER I FOUND YOU OR YOU FOUND ME.

I'll be worth her love and she'll be worth mine. It will be like the ourobouros I suppose. The love that feeds upon itself in a neverending circle.

LOVE ME TIL I'M DEAD

And I'll do the same for you, love.

AND I GOT HOOOOOOOOOOOO-OOOO-OOO-OOOOOOOOOOOOO

-i love you. it won't be long 'til we meet again for the first time-

(hawaii nine)
(hawaii eleven)

2 comments:

J said...

"The girl who will love me for me."

Not because you're tough like Dirty Harry? Make her laugh just like Jim Carrey?



Couldn't resist being a smart-ass, even though I dig the writing. It's my nature.

dusty.rhodes said...

You could at least link to your references, DOUGHNO.

Or:

Rather a smartass than a dumbass.

Or:

Dumbass: If I made a blog and was subsequently surprised by smartass comments, who would the dumbass actually be, smartass? That's right, jackass.

Sweet. I think I just ruined the feel for this set of comments. Perfectly incongruous I suppose.

me

"He's just this guy, you know?"